It seemed to be a wasted morning. I knew that I should get
to my devotions but it just wasn’t happening. I was filling my time doing
useless things and just couldn’t get motivated to pray. So I thought that I
would go to the church to pray.
When I got to the church, I saw Pastor’s truck and at first,
I decided to just leave, but no, I came to pray. “I’ll just go to the door and
if he’s not in the Sanctuary I’ll just go into the prayer room and he won’t
know I’m there.
I was really dark in there, but I know this place like the
back of my hand, I thought. I really don’t need a light. Just go to the right
until I come to the wall and follow the wall to the left, right to the prayer
room; no problem! As I was groping my way along the wall I began to feel as
though I was getting lost and really didn’t know where I was.
“No, you’re fine, just keep heading straight.” Where is the wall? Is it behind me? Just feel
for it. What is that? When did they put a seat along the wall? That shouldn’t
be here. Where am I? Why is it so dark in here? I can’t see anything! I am lost
and I am getting scared. Where is the prayer room? I should be right there.
As I felt my way I realized that I was at the altar. Now I
was really scared and was ready to panic. I tried turning on my phone so I
could see but the light from the phone was so dim I couldn’t see much. “Wait,
turn around and go straight ahead and you will hit the wall, go to the left and
the prayer room is right there.”
As I left the altar I felt like I had stepped off into the
darkest space I ever felt. There was nothing to hold onto. I didn’t know which
direction I was moving. I was lost right there in the church. The safest place
I knew, I was lost and no I was really ready to panic. Just as I was ready to
scream, my hand touched the wall. I went to the left and groped my way into the
prayer room, found the light switch and turned on the light.
How in the world could I have gotten lost in the church that
I have been a part of for so many years?
© 2013 Jean Nichols
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